I hadn’t heard of this expression until about an hour ago, but boy oh boy has it opened my eyes.
Although I have been 99% sure that I have OCD, some small part of me doubted it because I don’t have any major, obvious compulsions i.e. the physical part of OCD. I do pick and scratch at myself and I am incredibly sensitive to noise and repetitive sounds – but I don’t have any of the usual suspects such as cleaning or counting.
I just came across this really helpful article on OCD UK’s website, which breaks down the obsession and the compulsion side of this disorder. Not having a compulsion (a physical response) does not mean that you do not have OCD. What is more likely is that you have Pure O – obsessive and intrusive thoughts that cause you to complete ‘unseen mental rituals’. Basically what I have been doing over the last 2 months – constantly thinking about the issue over and over and over again until I become depressed and anxious.
It feels like I’m learning new things all of the time about this mental disorder. It feels like if I really try to educate myself and have faith I can get better.
Below is the link to the article.